Waste or Waist?

Hubby came home this morning from a visit to his family.  I was up there on Monday and did a 35min walk.  So I can still walk...Anyway he stayed another night.

He brought home a packet of fruit mince pies...I love these things.  A massive pavlova.  Another favorite.  And a big bowl of rum balls...Add that to the icecream I made and the gingerbread house that I was given...

Two people live here.  One of them doesn't eat a lot of sweet stuff.  The other only wants it if is it here.  And it is here.  And I want it.  If it wasn't here I wouldn't even think about it.  But I hate waste.  The family that sent these here always buy in excess and quite often things are left here.  I eat them so they won't be wasted.  I need to work on that part of my brain that says it is better for me to eat this bought processed stuff instead of giving it to the chooks.  I have frozen most of the gingerbead house and the fruitmince pies will go in there too but the pav is sitting on the bench saying "eat me, eat me"  OK..the pav is not really saying that.  It is that stupid little piggy person in my head that is saying that but it seems he is louder than the fit and healthy person in there.  Maybe the fit and healthy person in there is weak and sick from being fed so much crap lately!

I know I should just gather it all up and throw it into the chookpen.  I know this will be better for us all.  So why can't I bring myself to do this?  I have done it before, to chips husband leaves opened here.  He gets a bit cranky about that but I still did it.

And here is where my head is so mucked up...The pavlova is nowhere near as nice as the one my daughter made a few weeks back.  This one has that bought processed taste.  The bought processed taste that I am so against.  But I still eat it.

Baby or Belly.

I've just remembered a dream I had.  Not all of the dream but bits of it.  I was housesitting, looking after someones gardens and animals.  The lady came home as I was getting ready to leave and asked if I'd do it again soon.   "After you've had the baby" she says.  OK, that's not good.

Now in the last month I haven't ask 2 people if they had baby under their dress because these days you just don't know...Turns out that with both of them it is all belly.  Same as me.  All belly.  No baby.  My dream lady just didn't have the same manners as real me.  And that is *dream lady* as in the lady in my dreams...not the lady of my dreams...And you'd think the 53 year old face would have given a hint.  Unless I look younger.  Now I am dreaming!

I'm taking it as another sign though...Time to get a move on and start moving.

December 2011. Where I am.

It's been nearly 4 weeks since I have been here.  Four weeks since I walked, rode, stretched, anythinged.
Four weeks of eating crap, carbs, rubbish.   There isn't much chance I'd enjoy smimming in any lakes or climbing any mountains any time soon.  And seeing as that is why I want to be fitter my thinking and actions (or lack of) don't make any sense.  Any fitness and health that I had gained throughout the year is gone.  Completely.

Husband has been off work for nearly 2 months and though it's not his fault I always eat badly and move hardly at all when he is here.  I don't know why, it's just too easy to give up on it all when he is eating chips or chocolate and laying on the lounge watching TV.  I don't even like the TV so I shouldn't even be concerned that it's on and the chips are in the cupboard and the chocolate is in the fridge...But it does seem that I am useless at wanting to get fitter and healthier when he is around.  That is something that I will really need to work on next year.  Or tomorrow.  Or now...He is not at all interested in doing anything about his health so I will be in this alone.

I will start first thing next year.  That gives me 4 days to get ALL the crappy, unhealthy stuff out of the house.

I will asked the husband to help me with this as it seems I am too weak minded to do it by myself.   I will put his munchies and the boxes of crackers in a locked box and give him the keys    How bad is that though, needing to lock up food so I don't eat it.

The exercise bike needs a bit of a cleanup and some oil.  As does the other bike.   I need to start with the regular mowing again  Get back to the 30 minutes at least each day.  The grass was looking good there for awhile.

I have a Gingerbread House here sitting on the table and have planned on breaking it today when other people are here.  I will put some away for the husband and send some home with them,  the freezing to have later idea will be put aside as I want everything gone...I need to get the husband to eat the icecream I made a few days ago.  That stuff is divine and I will not be making it again any time soon.

So, bring on the new year and the fitter and healthier me.  Again!!

We have our 25th wedding anniversary on the 14 February, no real idea of what we'll be doing but it will involve some sort of swimming, walking and climbing...

So first goal, to be fit enough to have some fun on a week away.
Plan...Cut out all the crappy carbs.  We grow all our own vegies so there is still going to be a lot of carbs in our diet but maybe smaller plates and more moving will work.
I'll print out a sheet with some boxes to tick and a timeline thing maybe...that needs thinking about but will be done today.

It's now 6.15am.  Too early to mow so I'll go water everything while I wait for breakfast time.

What's Up?

My computer caught a virus or 9 a few weeks back and although it has been fixed it isn't *quite right*
I can't comment as Me again and a few other things but the daughter knows how to change that.  I will call on her later.  Not long after the computer died the scales went the same way. They had been sick for awhile so I tried to fix them and instead killed them completely.  I have the old ones here somewhere and will need to find them. 

I haven't done any walking or riding since coming back from Hopetoun, so a month of nothing.  Still mowing and I think that is the only thing that has stopped  the great lazy lump that hides inside of me from coming out completely.  I complain about the grass growing all the time but it does have it's uses. 

Husband has finally gone back to work so the eating is back to normal.  I like to eat fresh unprocessed  food but do eat too much.   When Hubby is home the house has bought processed crap in it, chocolate, chips, crackers... and like he says. I don't have to eat it... but I do.  And icecream.  What 2 people needs a box of 20 drumsticks in their freezer?!  Well, there are none there now so things can get back to normal.  I'm running out of lentils though so will need to get some more real soon.

At the moment my breakfast of choice is eggs.  I have more than a dozen dozen in the fridge and though some get sold and lots are frozen that still leaves a lot of eggs.   I have some cooked chook/rooster and a cold roast in the fridge so that is my meat for the next couple of days.  Add in fresh salad and veg from the garden and my meals are sorted.  Apricots, strawberries and  beans straight from the bush are being snacked on.  I may will probably make up some custard as that uses up a few eggs and gets some milk into me.  The food will be healthy but there will be too much of it..  I REALLY need to work on that!

I don't/wont count calories to lose weight.  That is not a sustainable thing for me.  I don't fry foods.  I don't have sugar in tea or coffee and always use less that any recipes says to.  I rarely buy biscuits and don't bake as I would be the one that eats it.  I drink coffee, 3-5 cups a day and drink plenty of water, not cool drink or cordials.  I would rather have real food than bought *diet* food.  I do drink powered skim milk though, made up stronger than the label says so it is not weak and watering.  I like that better than bought milk which is not at all like milk should be...

When Hubby is home there is sometimes takeaway, my favorite being hot chips, the crunchy ones.  Not every week, not every fortnight...not even every month.  We don't eat a lot of junk food when we are home but there are times when it might be a couple of times in a week but then none for months.  Travelling with him is junkfood hell and I think there will be more of that next year so I need to plan better for those times.

I know that I am fat and unfit and would like to be fitter and thinner but obviously not enough to actually get serious and do it.  Don't know why that is...There is so much that I want to do, you know the stuff, *wander the countryside, climb big rocks and swim in lakes and rivers.*  and it would all be a lot more fun if I was fitter and not so fat.

Next year is less that a month away and I plan on going on more adventures then so lets see if I can get the mindset in the right gear.  Eating well over the next week will be a good start but moving more will be a better one...Better go get the mower out...

November Already.

I have been home since Tuesday and don't seem to have much to report.
Apart from a short beach walk that morning before we left the day consisted of Service Station food and sitting for 7 hours. 
I was out all day Wed and Thursday and though I knocked off early on the Wed and managed a bit of mowing when I got home there was no walking.  Thursday was another nothing day. 
Friday, OK, I did spend from 5pm until 6.45 raking and levelling sand and then mowing so kinda pleased with that. 

I was hoping to get more mowing in today and tomorrow but it is raining and unless it's stops by this afternoon the mowing wont happen.

Goals for November?  I have none.  I'm feeling like it's all a waste of time.  I am putting that down to the crap food I have eaten over the last week so I'm hoping that as I eat better now that we are home that feeling will dissipate.

Fit Enough...But....

When I first started this blog it was supposed to be a way to keep me motivated enough to get fitter.  I wanted "to get fit enough to wander the countryside, climb big rocks and swim in lakes and rivers."  Add to that *walk for hours along pristine clean beaches* and you'd think that I had more than enough incentive to get up off me bum and move more.

I have been away for a bit.  There was some mountain climbing, lots of bikeriding and some walking along beaches. It would all have been a lot easier if I was fitter!  True fact!  Who would have thought that!

And I am 1 kilo heavier than when I left here, less than a week ago!  But as it's not about weight, it's a get fitter blog, I'm not going to mention that!

I will need to put more effort in though because we will be going back to that mountain and that beach and it would be nice if it's a bit easier next time.

Tuesday, Wednesday.

Tuesday I did a *proper* walk that was a bit rushed as I had school pick-up so 25min quite quick.

Wednesday.  Home all day but nothing.  How slack.  No excuse really, I intended mowing...but didn't.  Thought about a ride...but didn't.

Thursday today and I will walk again, probably slower for longer today and I'm not home tomorrow but know there will be a couple of hours walking in.

The weekend will be full of riding and beach walking.

Sat, Sun, Mon...

Three days have already passed and I'm happy to say that I have done something for 2 of them.

Saturday - 5 loads of sand plus the 30min mowing.
Sunday -  Nothing.
Monday - 3 loads of sand plus 45min mowing.

I'm not home all day tomorrow, Thursday or Friday so not sure how I will go with the 5 from 7.

I'm inside at the moment, thinking about tea but there is so much mowing that needs doing again that I might go out later and do another 1/2 hour.  If I don't get, and keep, on top of it it will all get out of hand again and I'll be back having to start all over again and that is just too hard.  Another lot today will help keep it under control.  I'll let you know.

Did do another 25minutes.

Fitter By Friday?

Yes I think I am fitter than I was last week.  The ride, when I do it, is now further than the corner and back.  I am mowing for longer and sometimes doing out the dam area where it is thick and long.  A few weeks ago I would not have been able to manage out there.
I am dumb for not keeping things up over winter and it doesn't matter what my reasons or excuses were I am regretting it now.  I now have to start again and need to work hard just to get back to where I was let alone where I want to be.
But I have started.  Again.  For the third or fourth time since I started this blog.  Is that good, it shows I'm not a quitter though there are times when I just want to eat cake and read and not care how fat or unfit I am.  But then the chooks start cackling and I have to go outside and collect eggs and feed them and I notice the long grass so have to mow...the gardens need weeding, the seeds need planting.. It would all be a lot harder if I was fatter and unfitter.  And those big rocks and rivers are still waiting for me...

So I will keep with it, I will keep plodding along and coming here to bore you all and maybe one day the right buttons will go off and I'll rev things up and become the fit, healthy person I need to be.  Until then...The music is calling.

Friday.

Not much achieved here today but I have done the 30minutes of mowing and I did 3 wheelbarrow loads of sand.

So I'm saying that yes, I did do something to get fitter 5 days from the 7.
There's less walking and bikeriding and more mowing but that's OK.