Friday, June 24, 2011


I'm home alone, having a pity party, all my friends are here...that's why I'm alone...HoHum.

Apart from a few walks I have done NOTHING.  So I've been asking myself why.
Why do I want to stay unfit.
Why do I want to be fat.
Why don't I want to be healthy.
Why don't I want to go exploring.
Why Why  Why...
And I don't know.

I would be healthier if I moved more.  That's a fact.
I say I want to be fitter but maybe I don't really.  I mean if I wanted to be fitter then why aren't I working at it.  I know I can ride 20km and I like riding so why don't I?   I like bushwalking so why don't I go on some?   I like climbing rocks so why don't I go more often to places where I can climb them?

Why Why Why...
What benifits am I getting from being fat and unfit.  There must be some but I don't know what they are.
I *think* it could be that I am not unhappy with it, maybe.  I have clothes that fit, I can walk or ride when I need to, I'm still a nice person.  What would be different if I was fitter?

If you know the answers then please let me know them. 

I'm still going to keep trying because I know that one day things will jump in place and I will be all gung ho again.  Hopefully it will be soon.

OK, positiveness...It Will Be Soon.


  1. I think it's the Winter Blues as I haven't been exercising outside much but do a few on the spot exercises inside. It's also not the same exercising by yourself, even accompanied by your animal friends, like I am. I'm not gaining weight though and as I have a doctor's appointment in a few days I may have to re organise my thinking.

  2. I was thinking along the same lines. Then, I discovered my thyroid is not functioning as it should. This condition has contributed to lethargy. But, when I do attempt to lose weight over a long period, I do not lose an ounce. Yes, I still eat the wrong things and too much of the right things. But, between hypothyroidism and bad eating and lack of moving about, it has been bad news for my weight loss attempts. Now that I have medication to boost the thyroid activity, I must continue my healthy eating and add more movement to my days. Good luck.